Today started out as a good day. I ate:

Bowl of Chicken Soup for lunch but then it went down hill

I had a Pria protein bar 110 cal., then I had pieces of brownie and 3 handfuls of cracklin out bran.
My restriction is shot for the day, and I still have the evening to deal with, hopefully I am able to find a non-dressed salad or a brothy soup for dinner.

Last night I felt really empowered because I went to CPK with my husband and normally I will eat many helpings of bread, soup, & pizza, then maybe dessert depending on how we feel that day. With that said I felt successful because all I ate yesterday was a bowl of pea soup, 2 pieces of bread, & a bite not a piece of pizza. To many ana's that doe not sound that amazing but for me it is the begining of my restricting and now even today I feel liter and thinner. I am excited to keep it up.

Today I ate whole oatmeal (150 Cal) and for dinner I just had Pea soup again this one is from Trader Joes and in the entire can it is just 150 cal. Then I gave into temptation and had a slice of low fat pizza (97.5 Cal). So all in all I am looking at +/- 400 Cal.

I feel like if I can restrict to 500 Cal or less everyday then I will get to my first goal in about 2 weeks which is 130 lbs. I know that sounds huge but I am trying hard and I am optimistic it will pay off soon. If in a month I could get to 120 lbs. that would be amazing. I will weigh in tomorrow morning and post how I am doing.

CW: 144
HW: 146
GW: 110

I jumped on the scale today and I was down 2 lbs. I am so excited I am seeing progress. I need to continue to be good today. So far I have had a cuple of rice chex, but beyond that nothing except water. In an 1.5 hr I have a hair appointment so that will help and keep me from eating this afternoon. And i have a game plan for tonight, I plan on having pea soup, this organic one I git from traders joes only has 150 calories in the whole can, i plan on eating it for dinner.

So today after a year filled with getting married, moving, and holidays I finally decided to step on the scale. My suspisions were confirmed, I have gained 20 lbs and I am disgusted. I am 5'2" and weigh 146lbs. I am sick of being fat and none of my clothes fitting I have decided to take control and become pro ana. Today all I ate was a few cracklin oat bran peices, some lettuce, and of course my mom made cookies so I had some cookie dough, what was I thinking, but still I feel successful. I just need to continue and be better. I know I can and with everyones support here I know I can get to my goal of 110 lbs.